I wrote two emails to my oldest friends... the holidays are coming, and I usually see them when they come home, it's basically the only thing I look forward to all year... to have friends again.
I miss having friends, I think that is what is great about being in the dorms your freshman year... you are forced to interact with so many people your own age... so many friends, or are they... not really, they arent really friends.
I have been through college a few times now, and you would think I would have hundreds of friends... I usually stay in touch with one or two people, but then they slowly drift away, go running into the arms of someone better, or funner, or more understanding, or less busy. Who knows, I haven't mastered this whole friends thing- I try to invite my old friends out- yet they never return the favor... why? Am I such a troll? Am I not fun? I always seem to have fun when I do go out with friends...
Oh how I miss school- to have that one friend that you see everyday, and stick to, they are always there to go get coffee, or tea, there to go to bar after class, there to let you know when class has been cancelled. How I miss those days.
I miss my friends... everything is different now.
The only friend I seem to have is my brother, my mother, my father, my boss, and my husband. How lame is that? These people shouldn't be my only interaction for the week... I need something else... a new perspective. Where do people that are married, busy with work, and not overly party oriented go to find a friend to hang out with during the day?
One thing that I really can't stand however, is listening to female friends talk to each other... for instance, my boss is the typical 40 year woman... think of Jessica Parker from Sex in the City- or rather think of Charlotte, that is more my boss....
women come to the store just to talk to her... and the crap they talk about is stupid. I have noticed that sometimes my boss can get really loud and excitable, and who ever she talks to will mimick her energy. What is the deal with that? Women are a bunch of sheep with wolves clothing on. I have yet to meet a woman that won't back stab me, or talk crap on me, or tell me to my face that I am stupid or dumb. Actually, that may be my friend Claire... she will not for any amount of money talk crap on a friend, nor anyone else for that matter. Hence, nobody talks crap on her...
I tried this theory... I try to stick up for people... but my god, women are bitchy- they can't wait to spill the beans about the war-wounds of another female. ... so mean.
This is why men are fabulous creatures. .. perfect little soldiers with a third arm to please you. I have always had male friends... more because of the things I stated above- men are simple happy creatures that bond without conversation...one man could look over at another man and like his outfit... and so therefor, that one male is excepted as looking cool- and is now apart of the clan.
This sorta works in the same way for women- however, women will think that you look cool- and then go over to her girlfriend and whisper a comment saying... "I bet she's a huge slut" this is all because the girl is dressed to impress... this is another reason why I have problems dressing "sexy" it's all the trend... I just can't stand having other girls judge me on what I'm wearing. this is why I try to go almost business casual.... with a sexy shoe or something. You can't judge someone that looks like they just got off work- with flawless hair, and fresh makeup....makes me feel and look like a winner. I need power not attention, is my motto.
So to end this whole friend thing up- I have been invited to a "Holiday new member cocktail party" for the Philadelphia Orchestra- I am going to be on the committee- I am really nervous about this however because I may be the youngest person on it. Also, I am one that becomes bored very fast- so to sit down and listen to lectures about an orchestra will bore me to tears... and! this is a place where I doubt I will make any friends... seeing as these people could all basically be a parent to me.
Oh well worth a shot, you never know who you will meet. These people must have something that will help me out.
