Facebook

I traded in my Facebook hours of boring posts and other peoples lives to live my own life. 

Instead of FB, I read articles that I wanted to read on news, people, politics and for some reason Mia Farrow (what a weird lady) and yes, I think Frank Sinatra is the father of her kid. Woody Allen is definitely NOT the father. Basically, I made up my own Facebook of weird people that were actually interesting.
This gave me control over what I wanted to see, instead of things, I was forced to see. 

I looked at recipes I wanted to make, instead of looking at unhealthy recipes that were just gross. I might even cook dinner tonight. (Roasted pan Chicken with a pot pie sauce, with salad, and stuffing. Comfort food on a cold rainy day.)

I even went to a park with my daughter and went for a mile long walk, all without my phone. This made me feel better. I still cringe when she wants to go on the swings...  I can't really stand still that long. I get bored. BUT!,  I much rather spend time with my kid walking in nature, and getting some fresh air, then looking at maps of how far my friends ran that day on Facebook.

I always envied the people that don't use Facebook. When I hang out with them, I have something to talk to them about. Where as when I see a fellow face booker, we comment to each other how funny our posts were to each other.
Does this sound bizarre? It should.

I wanted to move! I wanted to get a house in the woods away from "this" life. It turns out that what I needed to get away from was social media and feeling like I was doing nothing.
I posted about my life and thoughts because I was trying to compose a book of sorts. All these posts were to be used as reference. It turns out while doing that I was needing validation and "likes" to create that... the more likes I got, the happier I would feel.
This is not NORMAL.

I started to research the word "unhappy".... I'm not depressed. I'm just feeling "unhappy".
It turns out that my situation is common among face bookers. I was putting my life aside to live on my phone. Watching everyone else live their lives, reading their political agenda, and mostly looking at photos of peoples horses, kids, and night life.
It became boring. I was bored. I needed a change. I need this. To actually write, or create or DO something.

I've also noticed that I have very little energy. Unhappy people don't get enough exercise, don't socialize, and don't eat healthy. All me me me.
I also drink way too much. Look out 5pm- I'm going to drown my anxiety in a 6 pack of cheap beer.

This is my week of change.

No social media, I'm going to cook healthy dinners, eat fruit and veggies, spend more quality time with my kids and take them places, and I'm going to stop drinking. I'm going to test this article to see if this is truly what is making me feel unhappy.


People that are unhappy will often not take a break, ignore time for themselves, avoid new things, or refuse to pamper themselves. Also... me.

So.... I'm going to close my barn on Mondays, Go to the nail salon on Tuesday, and find a new book to read. Yes, I'm going to try reading a book! I still have no desire to hang out with anyone- but I did look into going on a date with my husband. We never go out on dates. In fact, the minute he comes home we both rush off in opposite directions to get our farm chores done. Mondays, are our day off now.

So... heres to a new me, to see... if I can try to be Happy.

A ONE MILE WALK WITH MY FAVORITE LITTLE GIRL.