Single for a day

"What's that noise?"

The sound of my own thoughts formulating a slow and concise rhythm in my head.

I just typed a whole sentence with out stopping.

I can hear the birds outside and the sound of the water flowing in my fish tank...along with the clock ticking away every second of joy this brings me.

I even just used the bathroom for a full 5 minutes WHILE looking at my phone and playing a game.... and there was no little person knocking on the door screaming at me.

I don't know what to do with myself. I have forgotten what it feels like to have time.... and quiet all to myself. It's an eerie feeling. I wonder if this is what it's like when you die? and go to heaven...

I'm having trouble slowing down because normally if I get a moment like this it will only last about 5 minutes, so I have to strategize my next move, make it count and think of thinks that are not baby friendly to do first.

Anyway, the whole family just left to go to Grannies house. I am here all by myself...for the next hour until I'm off to the barn to start work.

I have a horse show tomorrow to go to. Its just a local little show, but its' a big deal to me because I'm riding little Raven...(hopefully if we can get her on the trailer) who is still fresh out of the oven as far as training goes. We are leaving at 7:30 am tomorrow. I still need to get Raven cleaned up and sparkling, clean my tack, clean my boots, wash my show shirts, and ride 2-3 horses today and teach maybe two lessons.

It's going to be a busy day, one without children to come rushing home to.
I did actually shed a tear saying goodbye to them though. Give me a mom sticker please, I'm not a total monster.... and I do actually kinda miss them.