Watts is home and I'm selfish

Watts spent his first three night vacation at Granny's house. I went to go and get him yesterday. It was strange for me to see my toddler after being gone for three days. He was more happy to see James (his 9 month old brother) then he was to see me. 

I guess I can understand his feelings. I'm a monster to him. I yell at him constantly about breaking things in my house, I get mad at him for hurting his baby brother... he is just never doing anything right. 

I would be upset to see me too. 

Granny lets him do whatever he wants and is nice to him. 

He wanted to stay with Granny. 

He did not want to come home with me. 

It wasn't that bad though... I got him in the car, and he was fine. Going home with the monster. I took him to the barn with me, I had some things to do, and he was very good. He fed the horses treats, and stuck to my side. Overall he was a very good boy. 

This morning I fed him breakfast, and told him to go pee on the potty. To my surprise he did his first poop on the potty. He looked in shock. 

Is this a turning point in our relationship?

Could he be a different boy now? I don't know where Watts went... but I'm liking this new kid. I shall name him.... "Cool" 

like from parenthood. 

Anyway, life is ok right now. 

Potty training 

check. 

Baby asleep.

check

Mental Soundness

working on it

The hubster told me this morning that I was "selfish". 

That was a kick to my mental health. 

I mentally punched him in the face....

I just want him to have some friends. A life outside of making money and catering to all of my whims and wants and working on this house. He yelled at me saying that he has no time, he's too busy taking care of things, he has no time for fun... unlike me that is constantly "running away" to go be with horses. 

What a jerk. 

I promptly told him that if I didn't find time for myself I would get a divorce and ditch his kids. 

That shut him up. 

I was going for the wow factor on this, (I like the hubster and the kids... they just don't like me). 

BUT...

I still want him to get a life outside of being a slave to me and the boys. There is always time, if you make it for yourself. 

We can work around a schedule for him. 

He just needs to find something he wants to do first, and then we can go from there. 

Instead, I'm a selfish bitch that sucks the life out of people. 

Oh marriage....

It's just one big blame game. A Duel of the sex's. 

A tug of war of friends, family and life. 

The big suck. 

Bet your sorry now hubster!

Go sign up for Golf lessons on monday. 

just DO it. 

or else.